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blue_ajahAnguished in spirit, Moiraine paced the floor in her room, Anthy's words ringing in her ears.
Perhaps you've been tainted by Shadow, too, by your World of Dreams.
Other memories rose unbidden, a voice speaking a lecture from the classroom she had sat in as Accepted, long ago.
We know from the studies of Corianin Nedeal that Tel'aran'rhiod may be entered in person as well as through the dream. However, it is dangerous, in that such a thing may rob those doing so of pieces of their humanity and open them to evil. The longer one stays in the World of Dreams in the flesh, or the more times one enters it in this fashion, the greater the danger becomes.
She had been captive in the Tower of Ghenjei for a long time. Moiraine shivered.
"No. No. Surely I would know if such a thing were true. I do not serve the Dark One. I do not aid his cause. Surely I would sense such taint, as I have sensed it in others, even here..."
Images flickered through her mind as though they were pages in a book. Tom, lying on the ground, touched by poisoned saidin that called to and was called by the Darkness in him. Drusilla, having both a soul and the spirit of Shadowspawn within. Peter, eyes filled with hatred, radiating contamination on a scale with that of Mashadar, in addition to his own chosen Shadow.
Darkfriends. And she had aided them. She had Healed them all.
For one eternal, agonizing moment, Moiraine stood paralyzed by doubt, and then her eyes sparkled with annoyance, and she scoffed at her own fear.
"Light blind me for a fool if I let the words of that Shadow-cursed child haunt me so, or the actions I have taken here. A situation is always more complex than it may appear on the surface, and I certainly had similar tolerance for this sort of thing, and worse when it was necessary, long before entering Tel'aran'rhiod. I would have known if I were tainted, or Will Stanton would have, it seems certain."
"It was only the dream that unsettled me. Only the dream." She considered. "Lord Morpheus said there was a purpose to my dreaming, but... I was never a Dreamer. Surely I cannot be one now. Light send that it may not be true. Even Dreamers see only possibilities. I will have to find out."
What if the dream is true?
Moiraine laughed bitterly. " 'Let tears flow, O ye people of the world. Weep for your salvation.' I have come too far to turn away now, no matter what is required." Silent, unheeded, tears began to fall as she whispered, "Light protect him. Light protect us all."
Perhaps you've been tainted by Shadow, too, by your World of Dreams.
Other memories rose unbidden, a voice speaking a lecture from the classroom she had sat in as Accepted, long ago.
We know from the studies of Corianin Nedeal that Tel'aran'rhiod may be entered in person as well as through the dream. However, it is dangerous, in that such a thing may rob those doing so of pieces of their humanity and open them to evil. The longer one stays in the World of Dreams in the flesh, or the more times one enters it in this fashion, the greater the danger becomes.
She had been captive in the Tower of Ghenjei for a long time. Moiraine shivered.
"No. No. Surely I would know if such a thing were true. I do not serve the Dark One. I do not aid his cause. Surely I would sense such taint, as I have sensed it in others, even here..."
Images flickered through her mind as though they were pages in a book. Tom, lying on the ground, touched by poisoned saidin that called to and was called by the Darkness in him. Drusilla, having both a soul and the spirit of Shadowspawn within. Peter, eyes filled with hatred, radiating contamination on a scale with that of Mashadar, in addition to his own chosen Shadow.
Darkfriends. And she had aided them. She had Healed them all.
For one eternal, agonizing moment, Moiraine stood paralyzed by doubt, and then her eyes sparkled with annoyance, and she scoffed at her own fear.
"Light blind me for a fool if I let the words of that Shadow-cursed child haunt me so, or the actions I have taken here. A situation is always more complex than it may appear on the surface, and I certainly had similar tolerance for this sort of thing, and worse when it was necessary, long before entering Tel'aran'rhiod. I would have known if I were tainted, or Will Stanton would have, it seems certain."
"It was only the dream that unsettled me. Only the dream." She considered. "Lord Morpheus said there was a purpose to my dreaming, but... I was never a Dreamer. Surely I cannot be one now. Light send that it may not be true. Even Dreamers see only possibilities. I will have to find out."
What if the dream is true?
Moiraine laughed bitterly. " 'Let tears flow, O ye people of the world. Weep for your salvation.' I have come too far to turn away now, no matter what is required." Silent, unheeded, tears began to fall as she whispered, "Light protect him. Light protect us all."
